My brain is open. It is open to all sorts of information and ideas, but it is far more evident that it is open; as in it is open spilling out of my ears and pooling on the floor. There is just too much to keep track of all of the time. I am combating it like a champ though. I am drawing and taking it slow. I am keeping up, but keeping myself at a good pace. I’ve been making my coffee with a pour over. I made myself lunch. I did the laundry and picked up the house. I have been more efficient with my lessons and grading, more prolific in my tiny doodles, and much more apt to have my nose in a book. I have been working on watercolor studies and final pieces and every morning I create a watercolor bug.
My phone is the devil. I need to put it down. It is just oh so easy to pick it up and check Twitter and Facebook and Instagram and repeat though. Chasing a toddler around makes your brain feel like soup. The release of the phone feels like a nice crusty bread to mop up the last of the broth.
It makes sense. It is a fight to be able to create.
In order to help myself both calm down and keep up the momentum of creating I’ve started to catalog all of the quiet moments I have with my son. I’ve drawn just about everything that he has brought me or given me as a present, and also some of the moments that we share. It has been a major help in attempting to be slow. The world operates very quickly. It is a fight to be slow and meticulous just as it is a fight to be creative.
I am not always winning this fight (see thoughts on smartphone above.) but I am feeling better about the it. I am slowly trying to implement changes in my life to return myself to the creative entity that I once felt myself to be. I am also realizing that for all of the time that I spent telling myself that I was working, I think I produce almost as much work now. It is quite possible that it has more to do with the type of time you spend rather than the amount of time. I’ve had several ex’s try to express that to me before.
I’ve been fascinate about this idea of time, however. There are periods of time where all I do is produce artwork and other times where in the past I have spent with my girlfriends or wife. It does seem like this is one of the better instances of balance that I have ever mustered. I feel as though I am making but not impeding progress. Now all I need to do is line up a couple more shows for 2017. Although, that might just break my balance that I’ve been trying to cultivate.
Peace
Mike